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I Quit Watching Porn 3 Months Ago, and Here’s Why I’m Never Going Back

By December 4, 2019 No Comments
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Many people contact Fight the New Drug to share their personal stories about how porn has affected their life or the life of a loved one. We consider these personal accounts very valuable because, while the science and research is powerful within its own right, personal accounts from real people seem to really hit home about the damage that pornography does to real lives.

We recently received a story that shows just how different life can be when porn isn't in the mix. Some stories, like this one, show how porn can cause users to objectify people and evaluate them for parts more than them as a person.

Dear FTND,

Your organization has made a life-changing impact on me. I wrestled with watching porn for 10 years. I was never happy about it, and I never thought it was okay. I tried to quit watching it so many times, but I never could. Only when I found your YouTube page, and saw your video about how porn rewires the brain, could I begin to break my obsession. Only then could I begin to rewire my brain again, and start my healing process.

I’m three months into not watching porn and I’ve already noticed a difference. Not only have I overcome my struggle, but things about porn that used to excite me and turn me on, do nothing but disgust me now. I finally feel clean from watching all that stuff for a decade. I’m 25 and for the first time since I was a teenager, I’m starting to feel like myself again.

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Porn drew me in

For years I was only attracted to women physically. I don’t consider that to be true attraction. Now that porn is out of my life, I’m starting to be truly attracted to women again. Not just attracted to them physically, but also attracted to them emotionally and intellectually. I can finally be attracted to woman because of who she is, not just because of what she looks like.

Related: 3 Real Guys Explain How Giving Up Porn Changed Their Lives

For the 10 years of my compulsion, I didn’t pursue my dreams. I didn’t discover my hobbies. For 10 years I played video games, watched tv, and watched porn. That was pretty much my life. Yes, I went out with friends and did social things, but when no one was around, that’s all I did. Now that porn is out of my life, I can pursue my dreams again.

Before porn, I used to love writing. I abandoned writing for the high that pornography provided. With my extra time, I’m beginning to write again. I’m reading a lot too. Reading helps me grow and develop into a better person. Reading and writing are helping me live the life I want to live.

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Never going back

I don’t have many regrets in my life, but if I’m being honest, I do have just one. I regret letting porn overtake my life and my time. I can’t begin to describe how much I want the last decade back. The relationships I could have had and the growth I could have experienced. Porn prohibited me from having any real relationships. By taking up hundreds and hundreds of hours of my life, porn stunted me from growing as a person. I cry every time I think about the decade that porn stole from me. I cry for what I lost. At the same time, I cry for my escape. I cry tears of joy knowing I’ve won.

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Porn no longer has any control over me. Porn no longer has any place in my life. For 10 years I was hooked. Those 10 years of my life were wasted. Those 10 years of my life vanished before my eyes. I thought I’d never get out, but because of Fight the New Drug, I’m free. I’m finally free from porn. And I’m NEVER going back.

B.

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Why this matters

Research tells us that consuming porn rewires the brain to be accepting of things we would normally say isn’t okay. Regardless of how long anyone has struggled with porn, recovery is more than possible—it is biological. We don’t think porn is worth your time or your attention because life is so much healthier without it. Thanks to this Fighter, we can see how true that is!

Need help?

For those reading this who feel they are struggling with pornography, you are not alone. Check out our friends at Fortify, a science-based recovery platform dedicated to helping you find lasting freedom from pornography. Fortify now offers a free experience for both teens and adults. Connect with others, learn about your compulsive behavior, and track your recovery journey. There is hope—sign up today.

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