How Avoiding Shame Can Help with Healing From Betrayal Trauma

By March 19, 2019 No Comments

For women, discovering your significant other has been consuming porn can emphasize and reinforce negative thoughts you’ve already internalized, like:

“I’m not skinny or sexy enough.”

“I have to live up to what other performers look or act like in order for someone to want me.”

“My partner has been looking outside of our relationship for sexual gratification, and it must be my fault.”

This isn’t just the case for women, but for men who discover their partner’s porn habit, too.

Related: Having A Porn Habit Isn’t Just A Personal Thing, It Affects Your Partner Too

Feelings of shame and self-degradation—whether from one’s own internal dialogue or imposed by someone else—can be a huge speed bump in the healing process for both porn consumers and their hurt partners.

Avoid shaming yourself

If you found out your partner consumes porn, you may have experienced feelings of intense anger, hopelessness, fear, isolation, or anxiety coupled with debilitating flashbacks, withdrawal from people or things you once loved, and even headaches or nausea. You may also lack feelings of safety or security. In short, you may be suffering from a very real version of PTSD called “betrayal trauma.”

These feelings do not mean you’re weak. There’s a reason it’s called trauma, and there’s actually a scientific explanation for what you’re going through.

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Related: The Science Of Betrayal: The Emotional Trauma Of Having A Porn-Addicted Partner

Betrayal trauma is a real thing, and it looks different for each person. Most people feel like they’ve been cheated on and go through a mourning process. The lies and broken trust are often what hurt the most.

For some, finding out about a partner’s porn habit can blindside them. Others may notice warning signs prior to disclosure that contribute to the trauma—like their partner withdrawing sexually or becoming increasingly critical of their appearance. Many experience a lack of intimacy, commitment, or some form of sexual dysfunction in their partner.

Related: How My Husband’s Porn Fantasy Obsession Led Him To Be Disgusted With My Body

It’s normal to try to make sense of what has happened or question what you could or should have done differently. But whatever the circumstances of your unique story, remember that your partner’s porn habit is not your fault, and is not a reflection of your value as a partner.

While it’s normal to question yourself, your relationship, or wonder if you being “not enough” or “too much” in certain categories might have contributed to their porn habit, these factors are not why your partner turned to porn.

Related: 4 Ways To Support Yourself & Your Partner Through A Struggle With Porn

While you can be supportive throughout the healing process, it’s also important to know that their recovery isn’t your responsibility, either. Those steps are really up to your partner—their choice, their effort, and their commitment when provided with access to helpful resources.

Avoid shaming your partner—whether or not you choose to stay

Just as there’s a scientific explanation for the trauma you’re experiencing, there’s also one for the impact porn has on your partner.

Even though this issue affects you directly and deeply, it’s likely a problem that started long before you were in the picture—possibly when your partner was a child. There are a lot of reasons people turn to porn, and they aren’t always sexual.

Related: How We’re Working Past The Issues Porn Brought Into Our Relationship

For example, an addiction or compulsion could have started forming in their younger years when their natural sexual curiosity was hijacked by unsolicited exposure to porn. These habits could have continued as a means to cope with their own past trauma, feelings of depression, anxiety, stress, boredom, or insecurity.

Instead of inflicting shame on your partner in exchange for the pain their habit has caused you, it can help to learn the science behind how porn has affected their brain and possibly their ability to bond with you emotionally or sexually in a healthy way.

Related: How Discovering My Partner’s Porn Secret Pushed Us To Fight For Our Marriage

Bitterness gets in the way of your recovery and theirs, and shame is counter-productive in the recovery process—whether you decide it’s best for you to stay in the relationship or not.


Healing in a healthy way—without shame

Your partner’s porn habit doesn’t define your worth as a human being or as a partner in a relationship—and it doesn’t have to define theirs, either.

Shaming those who watch pornography—and partners shaming themselves—only makes this complex issue worse and puts up barriers to loving connections that are necessary for recovery.

We continually encourage couples to make decisions about their relationship that’s best for them. Sometimes, that choice is to go their separate ways, and sometimes, that choice is to stay and support each other through the struggles porn brings. It all depends on the couple, and we respect the decisions people make for themselves. There’s no “correct” answer, seeing as every relationship is different.

Forgiveness doesn’t obligate you to excuse your partner’s behavior or stay in an unhealthy situation—but it can help both of you move forward and heal.


Get Help – For Partners

If your partner is struggling with porn, you are not alone—know that there is hope, and there is help. As you navigate this difficult situation, there are supportive communities and resources available to you. Below, we’ve got a non-exhaustive list of several resources for those experiencing betrayal trauma. Because this isn’t a complete resource list, feel free to look for more betrayal trauma resources that are catered to your specific needs and/or location. Note that while both men and women can experience betrayal trauma, some of the resources are gender-specific. Please also note that while some of the resources below are religiously affiliated, Fight the New Drug is not.

Betrayal Trauma Recovery



Addo Recovery

If this article inspired you to have a conversation with your partner or someone else about porn, check out our step-by-step interactive conversation guide, Let’s Talk About Porn, for tips.

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